the day after christmas is the worrrrrst! not just because it is the day after christmas but because it is pretty much the last day of the holiday season. i guess there is still new years but besides that we have january to look forward to... yuck. i am just happy i am still on winter break. that means no school and homework for another week and i am going to enjoy netflix and sleeping in. it is weird because this is my last winter break. next year i will no longer be a student. i will be entering my last semester EVER at utah state this year. i have a total of 4 credits before graduation. i don't know what i am going to do with all my extra time. maybe i will find another job or pick up some service hours! who knows however i do know that this coming semester it will be time to focus my energy on applying for jobs after i graduate. i am not quite sure if i am ready for all of this.
college has been my little safety net which is why i extended my credits into spring semester instead of completing it all fall semester. i am just not ready to grow up yet. i feel like there is so much pressure after you graduate to find the job of your dreams or to make something of yourself. for me, i know i am not going to find the job of my dreams right away and i don't think i even know what the job of my dreams is. all i hope is that whatever i end up doing it is something that i enjoy. i hope that wherever life takes me, i am happy and i am learning. i feel like you find life by living. so... no pressure... no expecations on myself i am going to accept whatever life brings. obviosuly i still have goals and aspirations. there are things i want and i will defintely work towards that however i feel like i am the happiest when i accpet life for what it is not what i wish it would be.
i think me like everyone else is a little scared of disappoinment or rejection. believe me, i have had many of those in my life and sometimes i regret trying but then i think disappointments are what really help you apperciate success. this last semester was so great but i experienced a lot of disappointments. it was hard but its also okay because i know i learned a lot from it. i got the most frusturated when life didn't go EXACTLY like i thought or planned.... oh well what are you going to do? you just have to keeping going and know that good times are always ahead.
